When I look at this picture I remember that really you do love your mommy. We've been having it rough this week and so I've been looking at pictures that remind me of how cute Jackson is and how much I love him too. Like this one when he was a week old:
And this one where he was cute and oh so chunky:.jpg)
And this one when we went on a picnic on Labor Day..jpg)
And the cute way he would say "OH!" at the top of his lungs.
And just the funny things he would do. He is so cute and so random.
It helps me forget about how badly he hates to sleep and how badly he needs naps. It helps me forget about how he hasn't taken a nap in four days, and how he wakes up and 6:30 and won't take a nap, and then won't go to bed until 9:00. It helps me forget about how since he's so tired he screamed his ear piercing scream all day today. It helps me forget a lot of other things too like:* How today we read stories for an hour. I kept hoping he would just fall asleep like he usually does, but he didn't. I thought I was going to kill curious George.
* how when I tried to rock him to sleep this week he screamed in my ear and hit me in the face repeatedly. He usually lets me rock him to sleep (when he takes a nap.) He would put his head on my shoulder and snuggle and peacefully drift off.
*how he spent an hour in his room tonight because I couldn't handle him and he wouldn't stop screaming and torturing his brother.
*how he has been potty training for six months and has yet to go a day where he doesn't leak pee out into his underwear before announcing he has to go potty, therefore he hasn't gone a whole day being completely dry.
*how he goes through 6 pairs of underwear a day, and lately, out of laziness (I think) he'll just pee his pants, such as he did today at the park, and then proceeded to scream and cry his head off all the way home wondering why in the world we would think of leaving the park, just because he peed his pants.
*how he repeatedly says all day long, "I don't love you anymore mommy!"
*how he rips any and every toy Hayden touches out of his hands and how because of that I can't leave them alone for two seconds.
But then I look at these cute pictures and now that he has been asleep for an hour I remember how sweet he really is. He's just going through a transitional phase and tomorrow we'll try again, and hopefully I'll pass all the tests he gives me and not become "scary" as he calls it. I remember how he has to give me and kiss and a hug before he goes to bed. How he always say "Sankyou," and when we're not angry anymore he says, "I love you now Mommy," How he gets excited to watch a show with me. How he is ecstatic that he pooped in the potty and that his "snake poo" is swimming in "pee pee water". How he loves to tickle and how he thinks he can make Heavenly Father and Jesus happy by tickling them. How he'll say his prayers all by himself now and always ask to bless our Prophet, President Monson, even when he's blessing the food. And the list goes on. Hopefully things will be better tomorrow.
5 comments:
oh, the joys! First of all, since I didn't know Jackson as a baby it is CRAZY to look at those pictures of him so little (well, relatively) and baby like. And secondly, here's to tomorrow. I hope it's a better day. If not, call me and we'll let the kids play together. In a locked, soundproofed room with rubber walls. And we'll sit by the pool and read.
Oh nooooooooooooooo!! I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Ha. I am glad someone else is going through this. Joe always tells me that Jordan isn't a bad kid. No he is not bad kid, but lately he has pushed my buttons beyond pushing! He tells me he only loves his dad, not me and for some silly reason this just gets to me. Anyway here is to a better day today. :)
Oh Shelly, when I hear stories like this, I think to myself, thank goodness I am not the only one feeling this way sometimes!! I swear, we have been going through the terrible twos with Brielle for 3 1/2 years now. I keep thinking, it's just a phase, it will get better soon! But I think she's just one of those children who are always going to push the limits. The flip side of the coin is that I think she's an incredibly strong girl and will go so far in life! But thank you for sharing because it makes me feel like I am not alone! You are a good mom!!!
And if things aren't better tomorrow, they will be another day...and how we should remember that our joys of motherhood come in moments...just like Elder Ballard said! (And just like you posted.) The frustrations will come...but so will the joys! Just keep on remembering those happy times. (Look at me...I should be telling myself this stuff.) Good luck Shelly! You are the bestest mom!
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